Sad times continue

Went to the hospial with Dad today for a heart check up. They put his pacemaker up to 75BPM. Didn’t know why it had been dropped down to 70. But his hands warmed up straight away. They are sending him for an ultrasound on his stomach too. They think its a fluid build up. He’s not good, can’t do any more for him, other than alter his meds so he’s comfortable. We were told he has end stage heart failure. But no time scale given. They are referring him to a palliative care nurse now. 😕

They also took Dexter to the vet. He has bone cancer in his leg, possible throat cancer and it might be in his eye too. 😕
Not a good day.

Going to the transplant clinic tomorrow to talk to them about you and what caused your death. Might get some answers. Tracey isn’t coming. She’s still rough from her chemo and doesn’t want to risk infection. I have her questions though.

Saul’s back is still playing up too. He went to a physio yesterday. They gave him a massage, so he’s feeling all kinds of new discomfort. He’s worrying about me too. I think this grief thing is taking its toll. Definitely not getting easier. Could do with an Em hug, and some of your words of wisdom too.

Love you always.

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